I've learnt many things, both good and bad. 2012 made me a stronger person than I was before. From heartbreaks to hypocrites to friends, all have taught me well. Oh, and I've learnt how to keep to myself more this year. Lol, kinda good and bad in a way.
The first half of the year was a struggle. From being the happiest girl ever to the most broken hearted girl ever. I've never felt that way before and it shocked me what I was capable of doing to myself at that state of mind. How I'd do anything to take away the pain I had, how I'd lock myself in the room and just cry all day without food or water, hitting walls, etc.
What did I learn from that? I became stronger in a way, learning how to ignore people that didn't matter and found out who my real friends were. I even became more independent and improved on my driving skills. LOL.
Second half of the year was filled with loads of doubts, insecure-ness, jealousy, hatred, anger, but there was love and joy too. I know, how ironic right? I had too many doubts and I lost trust in everything. That resulted in tears and unhappiness within me. I thought to myself, why would I want something like this back into my life?
Everyone deserves a second chance, no? My prayers were answered, so there were no reason why I should stop. Maybe this is God's plan. Idk, really. But I do hope it's for good right now. I lost friends due to this too, which is bad :(
All I know right now is that I'm happy with what I've decided and I do hope my friends would be too. Sometimes I still need support from them because insecure-ness still hits me. Sometimes, a hug is all I need.
To you know who, thanks for the promise you made. I do hope you will prove it to me and keep your promise.
Oh well, enough of these :)
HELLO 2013, please be good to me. I know you will be awesome. ♥
♥ Jocelyn L.
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